I was asked to write this list for a class I’m taking today, or a class I would be taking today but will now be watching a recording of on Sunday as I got a late invite to a(n outdoor, distanced, masked) wedding.Read morE
十年前,糟糕的事情发生了,我失去了most of my closest friendships. I’m forever shocked that I survived the year that followed, and as a person whose body typically reminds me of residual trauma before I bother to look at the calendar, I’ve been apprehensive about living through the anniversary of all of it.
Weirdly, though, thinking back on everything that happened in the context of what’s happening now, I see it as proof that I can live through most things. That year of my life was truly unlivable, and the one after it wasn’t much better. I hated myself and questioned all of my life choices—the bad ones, naturally, but also the ones that looked good on paper. I believed my life was irredeemably bad and, worse, that I deserved it. It was a long time before I recovered from this mindset in any meaningful way. For years, it dictated who I let into my life and how I let them treat me.58必威网
But knowing that my life, or what I thought was my life, won’t exist for another year or so has implications for the future, and it’s been really hard to shake myself from the idea of finality–that this is the thing that will definitively decide which doors are still open to me, and which are closed. Bleak, right? And aside from not being great for my mental health, that sort of fatalistic thinking serves no actual purpose. If I decide I no longer have options, then what? Do I just give up, accept defeat? Stop trying at anything? Lie down on the floor and scream until there’s an effective vaccine? (This option sounds the best, to be honest.)58必威
本周，我正在与常春藤·耶利萨瓦克有关内在动机，创造结构，以获取完成的事情，在线构建社区。Continue reading“Episode 10: Creating Your Own Future with Ivy Jelisavac”
My cousin Matt passed away unexpectedly this past week at the age of 26. I’m very much still processing this. The funeral was yesterday, and I was able to say a few words about who Matt was and what made my relationship with him special. Matt was a talented musician and writer who used art to process the things he saw happening in the world, as well as his own experiences. He was unlike anyone else I’ve ever met and likely will ever meet. It’s a devastating loss for our family, in particular Matt’s adoring parents Peg and Steve and his younger brother Michael. I feel fortunate to have had the chance to spend the past few days reflecting on the important role Matt played in my life, and how those of us who loved him can keep his legacy alive. The text below is the result of this reflection.Continue reading“In memory of my cousin, Matt Dore”
1. Do a writing residency/workshop
在感恩节中，我的艺术家阿姨告诉我，她计划在她和我叔叔保罗的艺术家殖民地申请申请的奖学金 - 他们还为着作者提供类似的程序。我一直想要这样做的事情一段时间 - 而且长期以来一直有前途和失败的艾米和保罗 - 所以今年夏天我会参加回忆录写作研讨会。
我的原始目标是在2020年在芝加哥经营，但在彩票中没有围兜之后，我决定经营底特律。比赛是加拿大的一半 - 你必须用你的护照运行并与边境巡逻队中间巡逻。只是我进入的那种奇怪的狗屎，这是一个平坦的课程！（向我妈妈告诉我这场比赛的道具！）
I’m deliberately setting this goal low so that it’s achievable. I currently have two episodes recorded to publish by the end of January, along with a third in the works. My goal between now and January 1 is to start emailing the people I reached out to over the summer about interviews so I can get them on my recording calendar for Q1. I finally have energy again after a rough autumn, so I want to make the most of it before I hit another low period (ahem, February, peak SAD season).
4. Publish 20 blog posts
我开始每月写下24个博客 - 两个博客 - 但是抓住了我的胸部，告诉我不要过度。真正的，写作五个博客帖子将是与今年相比的成就。这一目标感觉就像是可管理和强烈的完美交叉点。
5. Have one essay published
My alter ego, Élodie Clyde, is American but with the energy of the French Olympic logo:
As I wrote in a recentInstagram帖子：
This is what I’m using to guide my decisions in 2020.