58必威网

58必威网

十年前,糟糕的事情发生了,我失去了most of my closest friendships. I’m forever shocked that I survived the year that followed, and as a person whose body typically reminds me of residual trauma before I bother to look at the calendar, I’ve been apprehensive about living through the anniversary of all of it.

Weirdly, though, thinking back on everything that happened in the context of what’s happening now, I see it as proof that I can live through most things. That year of my life was truly unlivable, and the one after it wasn’t much better. I hated myself and questioned all of my life choices—the bad ones, naturally, but also the ones that looked good on paper. I believed my life was irredeemably bad and, worse, that I deserved it. It was a long time before I recovered from this mindset in any meaningful way. For years, it dictated who I let into my life and how I let them treat me.

58必威网

58必威

58必威

我最近一直处于大规模的Covid下滑。虽然我的心情起来自3月以来一直在下降,但我最近发现一次难以持续一小时以上的人。我认为它终于沉没了我们将在这种方式生活的时间更长时间,而且我已经开始更多地思考,这将在我的生活中实现这一目标。对于许多检疫,我已经能够否认这一切是以个人为我而创伤的。我的朋友或家人都没有死于Covid-19,我没有失去工作,并且在大多数情况下,我很擅长独自一人。

But knowing that my life, or what I thought was my life, won’t exist for another year or so has implications for the future, and it’s been really hard to shake myself from the idea of finality–that this is the thing that will definitively decide which doors are still open to me, and which are closed. Bleak, right? And aside from not being great for my mental health, that sort of fatalistic thinking serves no actual purpose. If I decide I no longer have options, then what? Do I just give up, accept defeat? Stop trying at anything? Lie down on the floor and scream until there’s an effective vaccine? (This option sounds the best, to be honest.)

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第9集:与Jennifer Wiese一起运行创意小企业

第9集:与Jennifer Wiese一起运行创意小企业

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今天我正在与Jennifer Wiese聊天,课堂社会的创始人,关于运营创意小企业,真实性和爱好价值。

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在纪念我的堂兄,马特鸽子

In memory of my cousin, Matt Dore

My cousin Matt passed away unexpectedly this past week at the age of 26. I’m very much still processing this. The funeral was yesterday, and I was able to say a few words about who Matt was and what made my relationship with him special. Matt was a talented musician and writer who used art to process the things he saw happening in the world, as well as his own experiences. He was unlike anyone else I’ve ever met and likely will ever meet. It’s a devastating loss for our family, in particular Matt’s adoring parents Peg and Steve and his younger brother Michael. I feel fortunate to have had the chance to spend the past few days reflecting on the important role Matt played in my life, and how those of us who loved him can keep his legacy alive. The text below is the result of this reflection.

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第7集:与金伯利威尔逊的创意宁静

第7集:与金伯利威尔逊的创意宁静

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今天,我正在与心理治疗师和企业家Kimberly Wilson聊天,关于她作为一个多分配企业家的旅程,在保留你的能量时做出事情,并在你的生活中为普通创意播放制定空间。

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New Year’s Resolutions 2020

New Year’s Resolutions 2020

在过去的几天里,我花了几天思考我想在即将到来的一年内完成的事情。昨天的谈话Kimberly Wilson,很快就会变成一个新的播客剧集,帮助我巩固了我的来年,最后把笔betway网页登录放在以下内容:

1. Do a writing residency/workshop

在感恩节中,我的艺术家阿姨告诉我,她计划在她和我叔叔保罗的艺术家殖民地申请申请的奖学金 - 他们还为着作者提供类似的程序。我一直想要这样做的事情一段时间 - 而且长期以来一直有前途和失败的艾米和保罗 - 所以今年夏天我会参加回忆录写作研讨会。

2.经营一场新马拉松

在2018年完成纽约马拉松之后,我从2019年或多或少休过来。这不是故意的;我报名参加了一些种族,然后最终生病或受伤以完成它们。

我的原始目标是在2020年在芝加哥经营,但在彩票中没有围兜之后,我决定经营底特律。比赛是加拿大的一半 - 你必须用你的护照运行并与边境巡逻队中间巡逻。只是我进入的那种奇怪的狗屎,这是一个平坦的课程!(向我妈妈告诉我这场比赛的道具!)

3.发布12播客访betway网页登录

I’m deliberately setting this goal low so that it’s achievable. I currently have two episodes recorded to publish by the end of January, along with a third in the works. My goal between now and January 1 is to start emailing the people I reached out to over the summer about interviews so I can get them on my recording calendar for Q1. I finally have energy again after a rough autumn, so I want to make the most of it before I hit another low period (ahem, February, peak SAD season).

4. Publish 20 blog posts

我开始每月写下24个博客 - 两个博客 - 但是抓住了我的胸部,告诉我不要过度。真正的,写作五个博客帖子将是与今年相比的成就。这一目标感觉就像是可管理和强烈的完美交叉点。

5. Have one essay published

我故意将这一目标设置为超级微小,但它是最害怕我的目标,可能是因为它在我的控制中最少。我需要这是我终于开始写作和投注散文的一年(可能是创造性的非小说,而是也许也许更直接的东西)。我有一个漫长的出版物列表,所以我的希望是其中一个人将成为我在2020年生产的东西的家。

6.生活为我的改变自我

My alter ego, Élodie Clyde, is American but with the energy of the French Olympic logo:

As I wrote in a recentInstagram帖子

几个星期前我去了一个事件,我们创造了改变的EGO,然后用他们的角色出来。从那时到那天晚上我花了这么多时间考虑我的。她将如何不同地浏览关系,创造性的做法,财务,她的社交生活。她对别人的想法有多少钱,她如何对别人的感情负有责任,她的公寓会有多少清洁,她会有多少舒适,其他事情是凌乱的。她读的书,她看的电影,她穿的眼线笔。她的无人性,她的船长,她小时长的晚宴派对。一个更大的生活,但从未窒息过。

This is what I’m using to guide my decisions in 2020.