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我最近一直处于大规模的Covid下滑。虽然我的心情起来自3月以来一直在下降,但我最近发现一次难以持续一小时以上的人。我认为它终于沉没了我们将在这种方式生活的时间更长时间,而且我已经开始更多地思考,这将在我的生活中实现这一目标。对于许多检疫,我已经能够否认这一切是以个人为我而创伤的。我的朋友或家人都没有死于Covid-19,我没有失去工作,并且在大多数情况下,我很擅长独自一人。
But knowing that my life, or what I thought was my life, won’t exist for another year or so has implications for the future, and it’s been really hard to shake myself from the idea of finality–that this is the thing that will definitively decide which doors are still open to me, and which are closed. Bleak, right? And aside from not being great for my mental health, that sort of fatalistic thinking serves no actual purpose. If I decide I no longer have options, then what? Do I just give up, accept defeat? Stop trying at anything? Lie down on the floor and scream until there’s an effective vaccine? (This option sounds the best, to be honest.)
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